A Miscellany of Then and Now

by Alden Cole on March 26, 2017 · 0 comments

1986-AffirmationWPOne of the interesting difficulties of writing/creating this Slow Motion Memoir, this autobiography one posting at a time, is the fact that my records and existent files are anything but uniform, or in one place easily accessible in an orderly manner. Pieces of my past are all over the place in my files; I keep working to coordinate the various pieces of information, but new surprises keep resurfacing in ways that are not consistent with writing a neat, chronologically tight assessment of my past. That will obviously have to wait for The Autobio. Such is the case with the piece at left, a sample of my calligraphy in the form of an affirmation, which I penned shortly after moving here in 1986, given to me by JMH, my spiritual counselor, to learn and repeat each morning. In case you can’t read the calligraphy which is loosely based on a Chancery Italic I had learned at RISD back in the early 60s, here are the words:

“I give thanks that I am well, strong, healthy, free, independent and confident. I am at peace with all those around me. Each and every day that I strive for improvement in my life, I become more effective and better able to function without limitation. I am a warm friendly well-liked person. My success in life is assured and does not require me to take advantage of any other person. Rather, it obliges me to help others, without telling anyone about my good deeds.”

When I first arrived in Philadelphia May 1, 1986, my attitude toward self was anything but healthy. I was in a state of deep self-loathing that few people were aware of, because I had become so adept at pretending that my world was fine, both to myself and to family and friends in New England where I had been living for the last six years. From 1985 onwards, I had been experiencing a downward spiral of self-confidence that was resulting in difficulties at work, as well as compounding difficulties in the few friendships that I had established in Portsmouth NH. Suffice it to say that shortly after arriving in Philly I developed a new set of personal rituals, which included the repetition on a daily basis of this affirmation that I had been given, to be repeated preferably in the morning shortly after arising. With time and persistence I developed an understanding of the power of belief, and the role of affirmations in reprogramming old negative patterns of thought into positive perceptions of the self. I’ll admit that the process takes time and conscious work, but it is efficacious if one is willing to expend the effort. From personal experience I know it’s worth it. What more can I say??

DownTheIntervale#3WPReflections on the following artworks featured in recent emails will be posted later today. Please come back later if this has not been updated by the time you’re reading this. Thank you…










Philadelphia Flower Show 2017

by Alden Cole on March 20, 2017 · 0 comments

WonLee@FlowerShowWPHolland Flowers the World was the theme of this year’s Philadelphia Flower Show, which I attended last week; the first show of this nature that I’ve been to in many a year. First stop was Booth 324 in the vendor section, where I was able to thank Won Kyoung Lee (seen at left) and husband Matthew Alden Price (who was working back at the studio) for making this event possible by gifting me with a ticket left at my door, thank you very much. We had met last spring through one of their projects – My Philadelphia Story – which I promoted in emails and blogs at the time. Shortly after meeting each other, Matt and I deduced that we’re probably distant cousins since we share the Alden name, plus the fact that we were both born and raised in Maine. Jonathan Alden, the name of Matt & Won’s company, named after John Alden – the ship’s carpenter aboard the Mayflower, that conveyed that intrepid group of Pilgrims from England to the the New World back in 1620 – features very elegantly worked items in wood, as seen in the background of this photo of Won taken last Wednesday. Check out some of Matt’s mastery at his website: https://www.jonathanalden.com/

Spectacle1WPNeedless to say, this year’s Flower Show was Spectacle with a capital ‘S’. I found myself delighted but virtually overwhelmed by the sights, smells, and even sounds of the event; this was Entertainment on the Grand Scale for the masses. And for $35 a pop at the door, it should be. I noticed
3PrizewWinnersWPthat colorful LED lighting has really taken center stage in events of this nature. I found myself constantly switching between wide angle shots of the space, and close-ups of the various
AsparagusFernWPcolorful arrangements. Very impressive, and a lot of fun. AND I’ve never seen so many people taking pictures with their cell phones; it was amazing to watch. On the way home I snapped some photos of the Chinatown bronze dragons that protect a parking lot, as well as a billboard featuring a bowler hatted chap that reminds
Scarlet??WPme of my friend and fellow artist Burnell Yow!
Enjoy the virtual tour! Sorry it’s not Scratch ‘n’ Sniff!













a late ’80s miscellany of artworks

by Alden Cole on March 13, 2017 · 0 comments

WorldIsn'tWPThe World Is Not Interested In The Storms You Encountered, But Did You Bring In The Ship? • gouache and acrylic on paper, 24″ x 18″ • collection of Bonnie Schorske, Philadelphia

1988: After I had been working for Roberts & Raymond Advertising Agency for a couple years, company president Bob Sulpizio approached me one day to ask if I’d be interested in submitting an idea for what would ultimately be a commission from one of his friends for a boat-portrait. Intrigued, I said I’d be glad to give it a shot. The only information supplied was that the boat in question was a three-masted sailing ship named Semper Verde – Always Green – and the gentleman’s rather lengthy motto was to be included in the work somehow. Hopeful for a free-lance gig, I quickly came up with the artwork seen above. My idea proved too conceptual however. When I finally saw the finished product that won the commission, I understood why I had lost out to another artist: a rather bland, standard portrait of a three-masted ship in full-sail, seen in profile, at sea against an idealized sky, with the motto engraved on a brass plate attached to the frame; a painting I never could have created. My disappointment was eventually turned to satisfaction when my friend Bonnie expressed her desire to own the painting. Thank you.

MetatronWP“It is written that the figure of a bird represents Metatron [the highest ranking angel]. His head is the letter ‘yod’ and the body is the letter ‘vav’ and the two wings are the two letters ‘hai’… his head symbolizes the intellectual aspects… whilst the two wings – fear and love – refer to the higher ‘hai’ which is love, and the lower ‘hai which is the lower fear… nevertheless they are called wings, for the consummation of love is the service out of love and love without service is a ‘love of delights’.”

ManIsMade...OriginalWP1987: my spiritual teacher whose interests are far ranging and not confined to any one tradition, suggested the above drawing to me shortly after I moved to Philadelphia, utilizing the Tetragrammaton (the Hebrew name of God transliterated in four letters as YHWH or JHVH and articulated as Yahweh or Jehovah). After its creation, he suggested another variation which had been revealed to him by a friend, Rabbi Zalman Schecter. At left is the first drawing I came up with in response to this challenge; this in turn was
ManisMadePosterWPfollowed by another drawing, seen at the lower left. This became the artwork for my third poster created for Conscious World Art since moving to Philadelphia – Man is Made in the Image of God – published in 1987, another 11″ x 14″ b&w poster on cream-colored card-stock (don’t be fooled by the stark white of the reproduction at left). Copies are still available from yours truly for only $10 a piece, mailed directly to you from 717 Federal Street in Philadelphia with my gratitude.

TearDowntheWallx2WPTear Down the Wall – Then & Now/1988 & 2017 • markers on clear acrylic and vellum tracing paper; each, 18″ x 9″ • collection of the artist. For full effect, read the arts from the bottom up.

What a difference thirty years makes! In 1988, as a result of the ‘inner self’ work I was doing by studying with my teacher, I came up with the left image above, inspired in large part by Pink Floyd’s The Wall, focused on a number of negative inputs I remembered from childhood and beyond, words that may not have broken my bones, but they hurt anyway. Just two weeks ago, I decided to develop an idea that had been formulated around the same time as the original, but never acted upon, beyond a simple pencil sketch. Now we have the two of them: the power of NO contrasted to the power of YES! Next, to enlarge these two images onto life-size panels followed by having the words – moving and ever changing – projected onto the panels, rather than being painted onto the surfaces, as indicated in these initial sketches.

TheTree&IWPThe Moon, the Sky, the Pine, and I • oil on linen, 24″ x 32″ • collection of Marge and Dewey Thompson, Wisconsin

At some point in the mid ’80s I painted this reverie on the power of solitude; a memory of my time living alone in Dayton, Maine – in the country where I had grown up, and where part of me longed to be – the fool living on the hill; while another part of me longed to escape the intense loneliness I had always experienced living in the country, by fleeing to the city. This life has been consistently typified by feelings of ‘wanting to be elsewhere”. To say the least, it’s been an interesting emotional juggling act…

Bosch'sDelightWPWhile Reading on Bosch Late One Summer Night • pencil on light-weight cardboard, 14.5″ x 44″ • collection of the artist

“…with monks “accidia” [sloth] took on the characteristics of the melancholia and paralysis of the will which all too often befall those pledged to the service of God. But in the everyday life of lay persons, it is of no less import, a kind of creeping timidity that makes it impossible to come to grips with even the most urgent and essential activities…Under the guise of deep study or meditation [Bosch’s depiction of sloth] masks nothing less than a flight from the normal problems of life…”

The quote above, inscribed at the bottom-center of the drawing shown, is from a book on the artist Hieronymus Bosch (1450s – 9 Aug 1516) by Carl Linfert – one of my favorite artists – which I read the summer of 1986, my first summer in Philadelphia, an interesting one to say the least, when I was feeling a little slothful myself. Inspired by Bosch’s work, I came up with the drawing above, rather an anomaly in my work, in terms of subject matter, as well as execution. I’ve always wanted to develop the idea into a full-color painting, which may yet happen, given “Time, Strength, Cash, and Patience.”

MordorWPMordor • pencil, markers, and oil paint on light-weight card-board, 14.5″ x 44″ • collection of the artist.

Loosely inspired by Tolkien’s Lord of the Rings cycle, I started this drawing in pencil sometime in the summer of 1986, with the idea of turning it into an illustration on the grand scale. The drawing only progressed as far as the red outline stage, plus a bit of full color work. Finished, it would have taken its place in a portfolio of illustrations intended to launch my career as a children’s book illustrator, a portfolio that never materialized because I landed a full-time position working in an advertising agency, which totally refocused my energies, and ultimately made it possible to buy a home for myself.

ErikHansenZeroxPortraitWPErik: a portrait • collage of b&w photocopies mounted on foamcore, 30″ x 24″

1989: This was a total anomaly in my portraiture work, one made possible by having an office job with access to a photocopy machine. Fun and Games in the office, making enlargements of 4×6 color photographs, plus elements copied from “Monuments of Egypt: The Napoleonic Edition” published by Princeton Architectural Press, 1987.

1988Aug27-JEHportraitWP1988: Eric, a portrait • pencil on paper, 8-1/2″ x 8-1/2″ • collection of the aritst

“According to Pliny the Elder, portraiture began with the fear of lost love… all of art, was said to start with that moment of resistance to loss; the fixing of a fugitive vision… To make a portrait was to cheat abandonment; to close distance, triumph over separation, to turn absence into presence.”

quoted from Simon Schama’s excellent book The Face of Britain: A History of the Nation through Its Portraits published by Oxford University Press, 2016. A book which I finished reading last week, and is one of the most erudite and profound looks at portraiture that I have yet read by one of the great minds of my generation. A genuine learning experience and highly recommended!

ErikHansenWP1988: Erik – a portrait (unfinished) • oil on linen canvas-board, 18″ x 24″ • collection of the artist. One of my early experiments in virtual monochrome which I decided not to develop beyond this stage due to the expressiveness of the simple forms.

1989?-RobertMayberryWP1991: Robert, a portrait • oil on canvas, 18″ x 18″ • collection of Robert Mayberry

The last of my attempts at painted portraiture done in the early years of living in Philadelphia. The individual portrayed was my partner in NYC from 1971-73. Although he moved to San Diego in 1974, we stayed in touch. He visited me in Philadelphia shortly after I moved into my home at 717 Federal Street in 1991, which is when I painted this portrait. Unfortunately I reworked the painting a few years later, after which I sent it to him in California. Unfortunately I neglected to photograph the altered version before letting it go. My memory is that the reworking was not to the benefit of the painting. Basta!


Late ’80s: leisure time illustrations

by Alden Cole on February 28, 2017 · 0 comments

“You cannot escape the results of your thoughts. Whatever your present environment may be, you will fall, remain or rise with your thoughts, your vision, your ideal. You will become as small as your controlling desire; as great as your dominant aspiration.” – James Lane Allen (21 Dec 1849 – 18 Feb 1925)

DistanceLendsEnchantment-InOutWPDistance Lends Enchantment • oil on scored & folded light-weight cardboard, 16″ x 43″ • collection of the artist.

1986: New to Philadelphia, and prior to getting a full-time job in advertising, I flirted briefly with the idea of becoming a children’s book illustrator. The art at left was the only piece actually completed with a definite eye to creating a portfolio of illustrations that might lead into that particular field. Why children’s book illustration? A whim based on being drawn to that field as a result of purchasing a number of children’s books my first year in Philadelphia.

Triptych#1-Outside:InsideWPTree of Life – a triptych • colored markers on light-weight cardboard, 15-1/2″ square when closed, 15-1/2″ x 31″ when open. 1988

At the time I was making my living as a free-lance production artist for Roberts & Raymond Associates, a full-service advertising agency. Production work was pretty mundane, boring even, for an artist like myself, who had been creating illustrations and designing book covers for Samuel Weiser Publishers, prior to moving to Philly. During my lunch hours I started frequenting James Fox booksellers, a charming storefront on Sansom Street, a brief walk away from the office, that featured a great selection of books, a number of which caught my eye and proved all too often the truth of the adage “a fool and his money are soon parted.”

Triptych#2-Outside:InsideWPChoices: The Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil – a triptych • colored markers on light-weight cardboard, 15-1/2″ square when closed, 15-1/2″ x 31″ when open. 1989

Apparently I was experiencing a kind of ‘new-childhood-revisited’ via the work of artists like Chris van Allsburg, Nancy Ekholm Burkert, Leo & Diane Dillon, the brothers Hildebrandt, Gary Kelley, Kinuko Craft, Alan Lee, Reinhard Michl, Michael Pangrazio, Kit Williams, Don Wood, Patrick Woodruffe, and a host of others. I had always enjoyed the work of classic illustrators like Howard Pyle, N.C. Wyeth, Arthur Rackham, Marfield Parrish, Norman Rockwell, but these talented artists whose work I was becoming familiar with were my contemporaries, and therefore competitors.

CombinedTriptychsClosedWPThe Trees of Life and the Knowledge of Good and Evil – stacked triptychs, closed position.

The more I explored the field the more overwhelmed was I by the quality as well as the quantity of work available. I soon accepted the fact that my lack of discipline and commitment would never allow me to be a competitor in the field of children’s book illustration. So I moved on to manifesting my own particular kind of esoteric artworks. Of course, the question that always came up was what are these eccentric drawings in color suitable for? Science fiction? Comic novels? Occult thrillers?

CombinedTriptychsOpenWPThe Trees of Life and the Knowledge of Good and Evil – stacked triptychs, open position. 1989

Ultimately it didn’t matter to me; the important thing was that I was making art in my free time, and that gave me great satisfaction. I had a good free-lance gig that payed the bills, I was making progress doing the exercises recommended by my teacher; I was even developing a social life; the times were good. What was the rush to come up with a new career? I had plenty of time to figure out what I wanted to be when I finally grew up.

Triptych4ViewsWP>The Trees of Life and the Knowledge of Good and Evil – stacked triptychs, possible positions • collection of Omar Kabir

One of my self-created projects to keep my hand active was the two triptychs pictured above in various stages of development. What started as a single artwork done in markers on cardboard (of all substrates) turned into the creation of a second one which I shaped differently from the first. Once the second was completed, the idea of combining them took root, as you see above. Because these pieces were painted with markers which have proven to be color-fugitive, the originals have faded dramatically. Fortunately I took photographs of all elements in the set while the colors were still fresh.

AwakeningWPAwakening: Animal Body/Inner Self/Outer Self/Divine Self • markers on paper, 12″ x 18″ • damaged and cropped. 1988

Inspired by the concept I was exposed to through my teacher that ‘man’ is composed of four ‘bodies’ – an Animal Body (the physical vehicle we walk around in), an Inner Self (our emotional being), an Outer Self (our thinking being), a Divine Self (our intuitive being), I came up with the drawing seen above, another done in markers, my favorite medium at that time. Much to my dismay however, I’ve watched this piece as well as many others, fade radically with time and exposure to air.

MoonLightMagic2WPMoon Light Magic #2 • oil on linen canvas-board, 15″ x 24″ • collection of the artist. 1988

Moonlight and Romance happen to be recurring motifs in my oeuvre, a sublimation of the fact that there’s little real romance in my life, other than in my mind. But that’s not such a bad thing, as I’ve discovered to my benefit with time, patience and awareness aka Self-Knowledge. Much of my life has been spent looking for that special someone to hang out by the fireside with. I’ve finally learned to be thankful for unanswered prayers; to know that I have the ability to turn those desires into art rather than vainly pursued dreams that become disappointments. Hey, I’ve said it before: It ain’t easy being green!

HangedManWPThe Hanged Man • colored markers, colored pencils, white gouache on paper, 14″ x 18″ • collection of the artist. 1988

Despite encouragement over the years from many friends familiar with my work to design a Tarot Deck, this is the only one I’ve created so far, card # 12. And I have no intention of going any further with such a plan. Designing a tarot deck is one of the more esoteric projects one could possibly get involved with. Besides, there are so many decks published now, it would be pointless to add one more. During the ’70s & ’80s, designing tarot decks became a virtual cottage industry, almost expected of any artist interested in archetypal subjects. “Hey, if Dali could do one, why can’t I??” Personally, I’ll pass…

AIPHprojectC1988WPDown By The Riverside • markers on paper, 5″ x 10″ • collection of the artist. 1987

In the fall of 1987, I took a single-semester class at the Art Institute of Philadelphia in computer illustration/design, using a PC-based system-platform for the first – and virtually last – time in my life. The grid was created on paper as a template for an illustration project that took several sessions. In terms of motifs, could anything be more quintessentially Alden? Man in Mountainous Landscape with Tree beside Body of Water with Sun and Moon giving Light. Good to be reminded that there’s visionary consistency in my work…

Face2Face-b&w+colorWPFace 2 Face Yet Again • pencil, ball-point pen, acrylic, and colored pencil on watercolor board, 18-1/2″ x 12-3/4″ • collection of the artist. February 2017

Last but not least is one of my most recently completed works of art, just in time for Valentine’s Day. As one of my friends correctly noted, the line work looks like it could have been created 30-40 years ago by my hand. The more subtle coloration is even evocative of some of my earlier work in colored pencil, which continues to be one of my favorite mediums. At last I’ve achieved consistency! is outstanding success next? 😉


A Life Obsession: The Art of the Make Over

by Alden Cole on February 13, 2017 · 0 comments

“You never actually finish a painting. You either run out of time or you give up.” – Ron Rizzi (1941 – )

1986AC@42-2ViewsWP1986: Self at 42 • left: oil on canvas-board, 20″ x 16″ • right: pastels on paper, 18″ x 14″ • both, collection of the artist.

These two self portraits done only months apart in 1986 succinctly reveal the story of my life: an often unspoken dissatisfaction with things as they are, coupled with trying to reform what I personally perceive as needing improvement. This has been my modus operandi, seemingly from day one. The painting on the left, done in the spring of 1986, while still living in Portsmouth NH, was relatively true to what looked back at me from the mirror – an unflattering but honest appraisal of self. The pastel on the right however, done a few months after moving to Philadelphia, was an idealization of the reflected image – who I wanted to see, or be, looking back at me, instead of the reality of myself at the time. I was in the midst of trying to REmake myself into something better, more acceptable to myself and to the world, and the process was fraught with difficulties and dissatisfactions. I was never pleased with the painting on the left, due to its unsparing qualities. My ideal was to paint ‘beautiful’ portraits, including beautiful self-portraits; so in that regard, the painting was not a success. Fortunately that I didn’t try to ‘improve’ this piece, as I did a number of the others featured in this posting.

1987.MaryMaxwellWP1987: Mary M: a Portrait • oil on canvas, 18″ x 18″ * collection of Mary Maxwell. No photograph exists of the painting prior to alteration for comparison; this image was extracted from a small, blurry polaroid.

I grew up wanting to be glamorous! That word is more often associated with describing women than men, but that didn’t stop me from wishing I could be that way. I grew up wanting to be other, to perform a little make-over magic that would turn me into something else, other than what I was, which didn’t feel good enough. I was a little boy who often wished I were a little girl, which would have made everyone in the family happier, particularly my mother. I learned to pretend, to be an artful dodger of sorts, an entertainer who discovered that making people laugh was good: it generally made life easier, charmed people into liking me, even occasionally defused aggression. And that came in handy, being the youngest of three sons in my immediate family, and the youngest of seven grandchildren in the larger family unit that shared a multi-acre compound consisting of two adjacent dairy farms in Dayton Maine.

MaryPillsbury1983-88WPMary P: a Portrait • oil on canvas, 18″ x 18″ • collection of the artist. Started in 1983 – left image extracted from an inferior polaroid print; painting extensively revised in 1988.

In addition to those early feelings that I wasn’t totally accepted as a little boy by my family, which helped to engender a desire to be other, there was also the religious indoctrination I was receiving on a weekly basis from the church we attended, an actively proselytizing denomination of Protestantism which saw itself as God’s elect, the new chosen people. With the dawning of self consciousness around age five I increasingly began to feel guilty for a variety of minor ‘bad thoughts’ as well as actions, which preyed on my mind with increasing anxiety throughout my childhood and youth. The groundwork for intense internal conflict was well laid by the time I went off to school in Providence in 1962 to become a fashion designer. By that time I had given up an early teenage desire to become a beautician in order to do make-overs, turning plain Janes into beauty queens. Time has revealed that this possible life-path appealed to me based on a begrudging acceptance that I was never going to be that beautiful girl I wanted to be, but at least I might be able to help other girls achieve what I couldn’t. So much for the early plans and delusions of youth that didn’t pan out quite as hoped.

1985-88.MindyREvisited2WPMindy: a Portrait • oil on canvas-board, 20″ x 16″ • collection of the artist. Started in 1985 – left image extracted from an inferior polaroid; revised in 1988.

Life eventually turned me into a seeker after self-approval even more than a seeker of the approval of others. Feeling a deep sense of inferiority because of my doubts that conflicted with the feelings of superiority encouraged by my religious indoctrination, I was ripe for a sense of deep confusion and chaos in my life that lasted pretty much throughout my 20s and 30s. It wasn’t until I moved to Philadelphia in 1986 at age 42 to sort out that chaos that life began to make sense, providing me with a basis for understanding and resolving those conflicts, leaving years of residual guilt behind me as I came to accept not only myself, warts and all, but to like who I have become in this life. It ain’t been easy being green, but it’s proved to be quite doable, even fun on occasion. I’ve learned to Be Here Now, happy being alive, despite not having it my way in a number of areas of life.

EricGerman-Before&AfterWPEric: a Portrait • oil on linen, 18″ x 18″ • painted over. Started in 1987 – left image extracted from an inferior polaroid; revised in 1989.

Having chosen art as my profession, the need to improve, to make better, provided a driving force that played a major role in my various careers. Despite the lows which drove me from one job to another for over a decade, internally conflicted all the way, I maintained a sense of myself that would not yield to total despair. I began to understand that art was my therapy, my way of self-discovery that would lead eventually to a sense of refined purpose, self-knowledge hopefully, and internal peace about my condition as a homosexual who chose not to form a one-to-one relationship with another human being, but chose instead to discover who I AM through trial and error.

DanaBefore&AfterWPDana: a Portrait • oil on canvas-board, 18″ x 24″ • collection of the artist. Started 1985 – top image extracted from an inferior polaroid; revised in 1990.

Life has been quite an adventure. While in Portsmouth NH working for Weiser Publications, I started a series of painted portraits, mostly friends, with one of Mindy a model who sat for a group of artists with whom I met once a week. I’d done lots of portrait drawings in pencil during my Portsmouth years, but only a handful of paintings. These canvases accompanied me to Philadelphia, where I eventually reworked them after I had been here for a few years. I was obviously in the thrall of ‘improving’ the things surrounding me, since self-work, the science of self-knowledge that allows you to resolve internal conflicts, was the focus of my life at the time. I was studying with a metaphysician who had given me a number of tools with which to better understand myself and my choices. And one of those choices was to heavily revise several of the portraits that had traveled with me to Philly. Their expressions became painful to my eyes; I wanted to make them beautiful. Little did I know then that I was going to turn them into virtual cartoons, Stepford people who didn’t look like real people any more. One of the influences steering me in this direction was encountering the work of Richard Bernstein (31 Oct 1939 – 18 Oct 2002) sometime early in my Philadelphia experience. Bernstein was the creator of those slick portrait covers of the young, beautiful and trendy for Interview Magazine back in the day. But I didn’t work in that direction with enough focus, so I eventually accepted the fact that I was not meant to be a portrait painter, and moved on to other expressions of art.

1985-87-RobertBoardman2VersionsWPRobert: a Portrait • oil on canvas, 18″ x 18″ • collection of the artist. Started in 1985; no photograph exists of the painting prior to the alteration seen on the left, which was a major revising of the original. This image was extracted from a very blurry polaroid. The version on the right is a second revision done in 1991 where I took the painting over the edge into absurdity. I had obviously not yet learned my lesson to quit messing with portraits that shouldn’t have been revised at all. The original version of this painting of my friend Robert Boardman had a wonderful sketchy, spontaneous quality to it when first painted; qualities that I lost forever once I started revising. Lessons learned. Perhaps that’s why I never messed with the final would-be portrait painting below.

CathyPalumboWP1992: Portrait of Cathy • pencil on canvas-board, 24″ x 18″ • collection of the artist

In the case of the image at left, I never even started to make it a ‘painting’ so there was no painting to “never actually finish”. I gave up on this one at the drawing stage, when I realized I had drawn another self-portrait projected onto an actual sitter. It gave me a rather literal understanding of the comment “Every portrait is a self portrait.” This particular canvas-board was the last of the attempts at painted portraiture of others. I finally acquiesced to painting only portraits of myself from time to time. Photography was another matter however, but that’s another story…


The Late ’80s: doing my own thing…

by Alden Cole on February 7, 2017 · 0 comments

1978-89:22x34WithTheseHandsWPWith These Hands • oil on canvas, 22″ x 34″ • started in NYC in 1978; finished in Philadelphia in 1989 • collection of Sharon Gold

Sharon Gold and I met through Roberts & Raymond Associates, in early 1987, shortly after R&R moved into its own office space at Arch and 22nd Streets in Philadelphia, moving away from its parent company Sulpizio Associates at St. James & 22nd, only a few blocks away, where I had been working since June ’86. My new daily destination was a beautifully renovated old building – a former womens prison – that had been remodeled into chic office spaces. Our new digs were in the basement with an atrium above our reception area; around the open center clustered four floors of offices that looked down into this area with just a receptionist’s desk and two couches. This spacious arrangement often conduced to the feeling of walking into the bottom of a fish-bowl when I first arrived in the morning.

1988-Sharon&ACWPOne day I arrived at work to discover there was a new receptionist sitting at the desk in the waiting area with its spacious view looking up into the atrium. In short order I learned that Sharon Gold was the new temp who had gotten this job through an employment agency, but her real passion was music, being a singer. I let her know I was an artist who understood her creative situation. We hit it off immediately, eventually becoming fast friends – lunch buddies. We were both fulfilling respective job descriptions that were the most easily replaceable in our fields, she in the administrative end, myself in the creative. But we both stayed on. Sharon was hired full-time first; within a relatively short time of starting work, because she was so efficient and she ‘gave great phone’ – an ideal voice for her position as receptionist answering the telephone. In person she was charming as well as beautiful, so she filled the position of dealing with clients perfectly. I on the other hand wasn’t offered a full-time position until I had been working at the agency for almost two years. She and I shared the laughter and frustrations of working together at R&R for almost a decade – from early 1987 to late 1996 when she moved to Hawaii. We both have tales of working with Madmen! And she will corroborate that indeed I was occasionally one of them!

SharonGoldCollectionWPThe Sharon Gold Collection, now residing in Hawaii. L-R: With These Hands (specs above); Tribute to Peter Max • oil on canvas, 40″ x 60″; Eye of G.D • oil on masonite panel, 48″ x 48″; Yin & Yang #3 • oil on canvas, 21″ x 35″

Sometime in early 1989 while visiting my apartment Sharon noticed a painting that I had recently brought out of storage for evaluation with an eye to reworking. She inquired about it with sincere interest, so I let her know that I didn’t consider the piece finished. She countered by saying that it was really beautiful as it was. I let her know that if she liked it as is, she was sure to love it once it was finished. I continued by saying that if she was truly interested, I would actively get back to work on it, bringing it to completion as planned, hoping that she would like the finishing changes. Next she inquired about how much $$ the painting would cost once finished, so I countered with a figure off the top of my head, probably a lower figure than I might have if the painting had actually been finished. I was excited and encouraged by the possibility that I might soon be selling a painting. And that’s exactly what happened within a relatively short time. That painting, seen at the top of this posting, was the first of my works that Sharon purchased; she became one of my first Philadelphia patrons. Over the new few years, she purchased three more works, all major pieces, seen above. These beauties traveled with her when she moved to the island of Hawaii in 1996, soon after Roberts & Raymond went out of business. I hear from her on occasion, letting me know how much she still enjoys living with these paintings, the two largest of which are anomalies in my oeuvre.

1987-ChessGame3WPChess Game #3 • oil on canvas-board, 18″ x 24″ • collection of the artist

At around the same time as the completion of With These Hands, I was beginning to work on this smaller piece, based on the idea of cosmic chess – the interplay of the dualities of Fire and Water, Air and Earth, manipulating the elemental forces that create life, personifying them as beautiful figures. At one point my plan had been to populate the orange oval with a multitude of figures, male and female; but that plan has been shelved as I’ve grown to love the simplicity of that stark oval suggesting…? an infinity of possibilities! Is that just rationalization? or artistic wisdom?? Only the shadow knows for sure…

1987-2013:Sleeping2VersionsWPSleeping Entwined • oil on linen canvas-board, 18″ x 24″ • started 1987; finished 2013 • collection of the artist

In the summer of 1987 while vacationing in Maine, I cajoled two of my friends in Wells to sit, or in this case lie down, for a depiction of intimacy that I had in mind, which resulted in the painting seen at the top of this image. Sometime in the early 2000s my most supportive Philadelphia patron Betsy Alexander purchased the painting for her mother Harriet, who lived with it until the year of her death, 2009, the same year as my own parents. Betsy, whose art collection is impressively large, offered me the painting instead of trying to incorporate it onto her own walls, and I accepted gratefully. In 2013, the DaVinci Art Alliance collaborated with the Philadelphia Shakespeare Theater in a showing of art inspired by Othello during the plays run of almost two months at the theater. Challenged to come up with a piece dealing with the play, presumably based on a particular scene or emotion evoked by Shakespeare’s poetic sense of drama, I came up with the idea of portraying what had been previously experienced by Othello and Desdemona in happier days, and what could have been if Othello had not been infected with Iago’s jealousy. So I decided to go back to this old painting and give it a face-lift by toning down the male with a dark tan to make him look more Othello-like. While I was at it, I made a few minor changes in the background and well as a little refreshing to the lady up front. I titled the work Othello and Desdemona: What Might Have Been. So successful was the illusion that this piece won a second-place award in the show. It was all in the eyes of the juror, the actor who played Othello, who interestingly was bald. That’s theater for you!

1987DinnerPartyPrepWP1987: Dinner Party Prep • pencil on linen canvas-board, 18″ x 24″ • collection of the artist

At left, one of those artful drawings that never got painted; sketched fast to capture the fleeting moments of preparing food prior to a meal with friends, while vacationing in Wells, Maine. Making it up as I went along, which allowed me to turn my friend Diane into a geisha, and her husband Heinz into the man at the cutting board as well as at the stove. Their friend Barbara Yeager supplied the other figure at the cutting board. Will I ever paint this in color? doubtful, as the drawing has charms that would be lost under layers of paint. But as the inspiration for a new work of art? Why not?? Thanks for that encouragement Cathy L.

ThruFieldsOGoldWP1987: Through Fields of Gold • watercolor on paper, 5″ x 20″ • collection of the artist

1987-EveningSkyDaytonWP1987: Evening Sky, Dayton • oil on canvas, 18″ x 24″ • collection of Robin Hubbs

When I wasn’t working at a drawing board, either at the office or at home, I was often at the easel, painting reminiscences of back home in Maine, like the panoramic image above, or the colorful painting of a sunset at left. My first year in Philadelphia was fraught with times of tremendous home-sickness for the country. I was not particularly excited about Philadelphia as a city. After living in NYC, it felt provincial. I was here for a particular reason, to study for two years, after which I was going to high-tail it elsewhere – where that ‘elsewhere’ was going to be however, I was still clueless. I figured that time would reveal where next.

1988-1514S6thBackWindowWP1988: Back Window, Dusk • oil on linen canvas-board, 24″ x 18″ • collection of the artist

The city scape at left – unfinished – is a virtual anomaly, the only one I attempted before 2010. The view was looking west from my bedroom window on the second floor of the apartment building where I lived; 1514 S. 6th Street in Philadelphia, my ‘home-sweet-home’ for the first five years in this city. Yes, Philadelphia grew on me in time; I stayed here rather than moving on after two years, as I had thought I would. I started getting comfortable with myself, with who I was, as an eccentric solitary-yet-social being, in many ways for the first time in my life. So as I approached the end of my second year here in early 1988, I decided to stay for at least one more year. I had a good job, my social life was going okay, and I realized that there was no other particular place on the planet that I was burning to move to with the idea of possibly settling down. I realized I was already settled; why should I leave now?


The Late ’80s: working in advertising

by Alden Cole on January 29, 2017 · 0 comments

LotrisoneAdArtWPArtwork created for use in a print-ad for Lotrisone, an anti-fungal cream produced by Merck & Co., one of the major clients of Roberts & Raymond Associates, the Philadelphia advertising agency for whom I worked from 1986-96, my first decade in the city.

On May 1, 1986 when I arrived in Philadelphia, I was jobless; and I really didn’t have much cash in hand, the result of living close to the edge financially all my adult life to that point. I felt somewhat desperate, but at least I had an apartment; provided by JMH, the man I had moved here to study with. I had accepted his suggestion to come to Philadelphia on blind faith, committing myself to study for two years, this man whom I knew through the Weisers and had met in person only three times. As per a verbal agreement made earlier in January, after the two years were up I was free to go wherever I chose, hopefully in a better state of mind than I arrived.

LotrisoneWPWIN THE BATTLE AND THE WAR • Tight pencil comp – a mockup of an ad proposed to Merck & Co. for promoting Lotrisone. Art director: Lisa Volpe

Job hunting was not my forte, the result of negative experiences in NYC prior to joining up with the Weisers, with whom I had worked the prior twelve years. My initial job searches were fruitless and a bit disheartening. I vacillated about how to promote myself: as a graphic designer? or as an illustrator?? I didn’t feel particularly outstanding as either. The fashion world I had been trained to be part of through RISD seemed way behind me in time (twelve years). However that didn’t stop me from flirting briefly with the idea of pulling together a fashion portfolio, after all these years and trying to get some work in that world again. However, I eventually found work in advertising, and lost interest in pursuing that particular chimera, as I settled more comfortably into living in a whole new world – a big city once again.

EinsteinDWPPencil sketches of Albert Einstein for a promotional piece being pitched to Macmillan Publishers. Art director: Lenore Pittenger

NewtonWPPencil sketches of Isaac Newton for a promotional piece being pitched to Macmillan Publishers. Art director: Lenore Pittenger

In mid June through the auspices of DJ, a fellow student of JMH, who was also free-lancing in the graphics arts business, I was connected with LP, an art director at Roberts & Raymond Associates, a small advertising agency at St. James and 22nd Streets on the west side of town, headed by RS, a man with expansive plans for growing the family business of Sulpizio Associates, an advertising design firm, to the status of being a full-service Advertising Agency. I started free-lancing as a Production Artist, a title I was unfamiliar with at the time, but had been fulfilling for quite some time while working for Weisers: being a paste-up artist, working at a drawing board with a parallel rule.

PhenB&2WPTight pencil comp for a 2-page spread advertising Phenergan, a Wyeth Pharmaceuticals product. Art director for this as well as the three color spreads that follow: Lenore Pittenger

When I first started working for R&R, their major client was Macmillan Publishers. My initial role was as a paste-up artist taking art director LP’s ideas and preparing mechanicals for print reproduction. After discovering that I had considerable background experience as an artist, LP asked me to prepare a series of drawings of both Albert Einstein and Issac Newton (above) for a printed piece the agency was pitching to Macmillan. These were my first comp illustrations for R&R, which introduced me yet again to the joys of tracing. Drawing comps in either regular or colored pencil was one of the most relaxing and pleasurable tasks I was required to perform as a freelancer and eventual full-time employee.

Phen2pCWPBy the time I created the b&w pencil comp above, the focus of R&R’s business had shifted to print advertising for pharmaceutical manufacturers, for which the Delaware Valley area is well known. Wyeth Brothers was a major client, with Phenergan being one of their most popular, well-known products, for which we pitched a number of ideas. The colored pencil comps at left and below were three of the most ambitious and time-consuming comps I created for the agency, at a time before computers totally changed the face of advertising.

PhenGreyWPBefore that change occurred however, I was still required to create the occasional full-color rendition of what the art director proposed the finished two-page spread ad would look like when actually printed. In the piece at left, not only did I draw the small spot illustrations, I hand-lettered all the type with a fine brush and white paint. The illustrations were a pleasure to create compared to the letters, which were literally a pain – shades of carpel tunnel syndrome – although I did feel a great sense of accomplishment when the job was completed.

PhenerganWPIn the colored pencil comp at left, the most ambitious in terms of human portrayal, I reveal myself as an old man, little did I know it at the time. I was in my mid-40s when I drew this illustration, basing the old man of the group somewhat consciously, maybe a lot unconsciously, on my own father who was in his late 70s at the time. Looking at the drawing now, I understand the accuracy of the comment that all portraits have qualities of self-portraiture, some more obvious than others.

PhenerganAdsWPAt left and below, four single page ad comps for Phenergan. Art director: Mark Redmond

These were four of the last comp illustrations I created for R&R around 1991, shortly before the computer revolution altered our working habits and changed the graphic arts business forever. It would be a curiosity to see the quick pencil sketches by the art directors with whom I worked, from which I developed these illustrations that were to suggest photography to the client. Some of these illustrations were obviously more successful in that illusion than others. Ultimately I’m clueless about what happened with these ideas once they left my desk. I was on to the next project…



Self-knowledge: I am a serial limerent

by Alden Cole on January 22, 2017 · 0 comments

“the state of being infatuated or obsessed with another person, typically experienced involuntarily and characterized by a strong desire for reciprocation of one’s feelings but not primarily for a sexual relationship.”

HowDoILookSubmissionsWPI was 41 and living in Portsmouth NH when I first heard the term “limerence” during a psycho-therapy session with a fellow gay man whom I had met through mutual friends. I only saw this therapist once, but I learned who I was in that session: a limerent, a man who has fallen in love with other men since I was an infant in love with my dad. Looking back over my 72 years, I can see the pattern; a life that has been a one long series of “falling in love with love” affairs since I realized that my dad, as much as he loved me, still loved my mother more. I’ve been looking for ‘him’ ever since, learning that I consistently fall in love with men who are ‘straight’ – like my dad – and with whom the possibility of a sexual relationship is nil. I fall in love with men whom I want to be, instead of who I am, a pattern of denying who I was in childhood – an aggressive little boy. I learned that my family liked me better when I acted feminine. I became the family daughter, rather than the third son, in acquiescence to my mother’s having wanted a girl-child so much. I was a surrogate, a stranger in what was at times a strange household. But that background forced me to search for my essence, a quest that has led me to stranger places than where I grew up in Maine, and meetings with remarkable people. It’s been a very interesting and instructive life. The great command of the ancients was “Know Thyself”. I’m working on it. Still got a bunch of years…

Face2Face#1-7x21WPFace 2 Face #1 • framed in a triptych with two other paintings, #s 2 & 3 from the Tenderness series • oil on linen canvas-board, 6″ x 6″ each; total dimension, 7″ x 21″ • completed 2005 • Connectedness is what it’s all about!

The seven paintings shown in a line above, and individually here, were ones I selected for submission to a juried DaVinci Art Alliance (DVAA) show on LGBTQ themes – How Do I Look? – an ever present concern in our self-involved community. In addition to specs on the art, we were required to supply a brief verbal statement on why we felt these works fit the theme, which I’ve included along with their descriptions. Of the seven submitted, only one painting, the fourth, was selected for inclusion in the show, which is presently up at the DVAA until the end of January.

TakeAnotherPieceOMyHeart-27x21WPTake another little piece of my heart, now baby! • 2008 • oil on linen canvas-board, 24″ x 18″ (framed: 27″ x 21″) • Taking stock of how many times in my life I have fallen in love and given my heart away, all I have left to offer is little pieces of a sub-divided heart.

This painting was a turning point in self-knowledge, the result of one of the most tumultuous emotional periods in my life turning sixty, facing eventual retirement, loosing a plum position in advertising which pushed me out of the nest of job security, a free-lancer yet again. Plus experiencing the most intense emotional relationship of my life with a younger friend met in 2004, which revealed to me how much I simply wanted to trade places with someone else, the object of my particular obsession that Mars cycle, rather than being who I was. I was looking for my own personal Jesus, here and now, in the flesh, and I thought I had found him. The eventual shattering of that illusion (thank you OK) revealed that this had always been the pattern of my obsessions, going back to childhood. This painting was a coming to terms with myself, tongue in cheek!

TheChoiceIsOurs#5WPThe Choice is Ours #5 • Spring 2010 • oil on linen canvas, 18″ x 18″ • Each day the choice: who’s going to be in charge of our attitudes that day? Tragedy or Comedy??

Choices choices choices, Life is nothing but choices, to do this or to do that. This particular painting is the fifth in a series of paintings depicting the Higher Self presenting the options. As one Chinese fortune cookie states it: “Life is a tragedy for those who feel and comedy for those who think.” I’ve done my best not to be overrun by the emotions that turn life into tragedy; to see it instead as a Divine Comedy. But it is always a balancing act.

Face2FaceWPFace 2 Face #6 • Autumn 2010 • oil on canvas, 17″ x 13″ • Some fantasies just won’t die.

Selected by juror Craig Bruns, this is the one painting that made the cut, accepted into the DVAA How Do I Look? show, one of my most personal images inspired by one of the great friendships of my life (thank you WB); a painting I never expected to see in a public setting. The opening reception Wednesday night was a serendipitous event, the highlight of which was meeting for the first-time a fan of my lamps, who had become familiar with them through SOTA, the crafts gallery on Pine Street where I had sold many of them, as well as seeing a pair in the front windows of a residence on Pine Street. With inquiry I discovered that indeed this was a pair of lustrous lamps, somewhat atypical of my work, which a friend had purchased years ago, and which still grace her windows (thank you BO). This new admirer had been wanting to meet me, and was delighted to discover that I was also a painter. Thus he’s looking forward to having a tour of 717 Federal Street, this work-in-progress I call home. Welcome to my world JR!

RememberMe?21x18WPRemember Me? • 2013 • acrylic on MDF panel, framed in antique oak 18″ x 15.5″ • Part of me just wanted to paint a hot guy like Tom of Finland, but another part of me just wanted to paint like Alden Cole, remembering a would-be encounter that, like so many, never happened except in my mind.

In the summer of 2013, my sketch-books took a sharp turn towards the erotic; this was the one painting to emerge from the many ideas that took pencil form at that time, a paean to the desire of the new and unknown; inspired by a situation which harked back almost a decade to attendance at a Free Spirit Gathering to celebrate the Summer Solstice, at Camp Ramblewood in Maryland. The would-be satyrs were abroad that weekend, and I was no exception! Thank you, whoever you were, for the inspiration…

PillowTalk-2D&3DWPPillow Talk • 2016 • acrylic on fabric, 20″ x 20″ • What sweeter fantasy than to rest ones head on the idea of intimate pillow talk?

I’d been thinking for quite some time about artistically utilizing a pillow case with beaded fringe that I had found on the street several years before, the insides of which had been replaced with a fresh new pillow however. Last summer, inspired by an evolving relationship with two young friends (thank you VB and AT), I finally settled on an idea that could be painted with acrylics on the pillow’s plain orange back, and got to work. It’s always satisfying to stop thinking about a project and just do it; which is how we artists turn fantasy into reality.

SeaWatchers-19x24WPjpgSea Watchers • 2016 • acrylic on panel, 19″ x 24″ • En recherche du temps perdu – art recreates memory, or is it memory recreates art?

Last fall I started experimenting with images done in monotone: washes of white acrylic on the brown of natural wood. The challenge was, and still is, to create the illusion of space using such minimal material. The above image was the second exploration of a theme inspired by a real-life situation that occurred while I was still living in Portsmouth NH. Several years ago I made a small colored-pencil work-of-art commemorating the event; then two years ago I put that framed original into a show at the DVAA and immediately sold the piece (thank you RB). To fill the gap on my walls I painted this version, an attempt to portray the poetry of a timeless desire for the friendship of a dear soul. Thank you GB.


1986: the beginnings of Conscious World Art

January 15, 2017

In June 1978 when I was in Santa Fe NM visiting friends Pasha Buck and Amelia Hartzel I first encountered the Creed of the Magi (quoted in full at the end of this posting) which immediately struck a responsive chord in me. Once back in NYC I was inspired to create a b&w poster incorporating […]

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Backtracking to 1985…

January 9, 2017

1985, living in Portsmouth NH, working for Sameul Weiser Inc., book publisher/distributor, relocated from NYC to Cape Neddick ME. Early in the winter of ’85 Betty Lundsted Weiser apprised me of the fact that she had volunteered our office’s design services – i.e. myself – to help a friend, fellow astrologer Wendy Ashman, by designing […]

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1987: my first year in Philadelphia

January 2, 2017

The Slow-Motion Art Memoir continues; Drawn in Portsmouth; Revised in Philadelphia – a September 6 posting – was the most recent in this ongoing series revealing my life story. at left, my adios to 2016 and bienvenu to 2017, utilizing artworks created during my first year in Philadephia, thirty years ago. Further below you’ll find […]

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Blue Show Recap – the joy of selling art

December 27, 2016

“For an artist, one of life’s greatest pleasures is having others purchase what we have conjured into existence with our own hands.” – Alden Cole (18 Jun 1944 – ) For those of you who weren’t able to attend either of my recent Blue Show Open Houses, check out what you missed by going to […]

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The BlueShow goes RGB

December 17, 2016

The BlueShow — Part 2 Sunday 12/18/16 • 2-5pm 717 Federal Street South Philadelphia The BlueShow goes RGB for Part 2 of this holiday sale which has my first floor aglow with red, the second a lively green, the third a cooling blue; as seen in the night photo at left; even the basement gets […]

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More Blue-Show Evening Lamps #19-36

December 13, 2016

The Blue Show Part 2 Sunday 12/18/16 2-5pm 717 Federal St. Philadelphia PA 19147 Another posting previewing The Blue Show, happening again this weekend; displaying eighteen (actually twenty) more Evening Lamps by Alden Willard Cole. Inspired by The Blue Grotto (in its many incarnations), the life-work of Randy Dalton – Philadelphia’s arts activist Mr. Blue […]

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The Blue Show Evening Lamps – #1-18

November 19, 2016

“The deeper the blue becomes, the more strongly it calls man towards the infinite, awakening in him a desire for the pure and, finally, for the supernatural… The brighter it becomes, the more it loses its sound, until it turns into silent stillness and becomes white.” _ Wassily Kandinsky (18 Dec 1866 – 13 Dec […]

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